"Cause love's such an old fashioned word, And love dares you to care for the people on the edge of the night and love dares you to change our way of caring about ourselves."
Seriously this lyric in this song is absolutely amazing. It totally describes the way I am thinking right now. I am so down right now with everything going on. Work is just super stressful and my friend and family aren't making it any easier on me. I am trying my best and trying to do everything that I can but honestly, it never seems good enough.
There is this kid at work, he seriously has some issues with his family and in his life. Well at work the other day I was completely depressed about something my brother came in to tell me. It completely ruined my day. Well this boy was all questioning me about what was wrong. Why was I so depressed. He then went to tell me how could you, Alyssa Miss perfect life, be so depressed when I actually have more stuff going on in my life.... honestly.... that pissed me off to no end.
I was like really? This facade I put on for everyone and make them think that everything is okay when its not gets tiring. I am tired of pretending that I am okay. I am tired of all the stress and pressure I am going through. I am tired of people looking at me and saying oh what could Alyssa possibly be going through that can be any worse then whats going on with me.
Yes. You're life might be rough, you're life might be worse off then mine is... but I am a person and I do have issues as well. I am sorry I cannot put on this face 100% of the time. I am so tired of this pressure of everything. I would just a little bit of slack.....
I'm sorry.....
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